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[Current Song: Chain Hang Low-Jibbs]

You make me wana surrender my soul.

Oh my, I'm missing the boyfriend again.

And that's a bad sign cause obviously, im going to endure this "miss-you-syndrome" for an estimation of 2 weeks :( It's saddening cause today is only the second day. That makes another worthless 14 days of pure counting down. Baby, I'll wait for you right here patiently like a good little girl. :)) Convincing enough? Hehehe. Wells, here's a shout out to Shaifi and the friends: Thank you for painting the walls of my master bedroom's toilet and the kitchen's toilet. And I say thankyouverymuch. It was rather nice to see the toilets are vibrant white and the ceiling looks so much better. Oh well done you Jurong guys!! Good Job!

This sucks. Nothing beats a lousy day then this. My Internet connection is down like for 3 bloody days this is because the mother decides to use the house phone and POOF! The connection is stripped! Secondly, the very very bulging stomach is growling like nobody's business and guess what! The fridge's empty! Anyone cares to re-fill the fridge with yogurt, ice-cream pints from Hagen-Daaz or Ben and Jerry's, Chocolates, Tidbits or Crackers. Anyone? Anyone? I'll promise to love you for the day! Really!! Adding salt to the wound, im writing all my daily rambles and entries on a WordPad, hoping once the Internet connection is back to stability, I can virtually Ctrl+A and then Ctrl+C and then Ctrl+V it to Blogger's posting page. And to go out this week is a really bad idea cause Nur Fatin Ajman has the word BROKE written across the forehead. Pathetic isn't it, I'm left with $30 bucks for the week. Someone tell me how can I handle this situation like a professional. If truth is to be told, Nur Fatin's middle name has always been BROKE. :)) Oh! MAYBE Maybe, I should just use father’s hp to blog-out my entries. The wonders of technology. Now I can blog, in the comfort of a taxi or a bus happily typing my entries away. Okay now make friends with the father!

Cause the Internet connection is still down, im going to type more nonsensical ramblings. You may choose to leave from velevetlaces.blogspot.com cause apparently, what im going to type in the next few minutes might have wasted your 3-5 minutes of your precious life. Make a choice. Life is all about making choices. Sounds familiar? HAHAHA. Moving on, I think, I should sit down and have some say about my life.

Too often, the things I hanker for in life, is the things I could not acquire. For instance, I always wanted an "A" for at least a module. Well, according to the grapevines, that didn't happen to me. Not even once in my Counting 3 years of the Poly life. I have always yearned for a relationship that's full of sincerity. There' nothing much that I ask besides the truth and the earnest and heartfelt sincerity for me. Are there such guys in the first place or am I living in the world of fantasy to have those criteria's built in a guy. Sometimes the thoughts that I pondered over were never answered. Possibly, there's no answers to it or maybe, the answers are yet to have researched against it. OR MAYBE it’s just me being me, cause I have a huge weakness for Mat-Rep(s). It appears that even knowing; that these guys do not encompass those criteria, I still fall for them. :( It's miserable why my existence works this way. But ironically, I've learnt to be stronger emotionally and mentally despite of these downfalls.

I once mistook love for obsession. Today I knew that if he were yours, he' come back to you again, no matter how many times he makes you down cause his presence makes you complete. Maybe we're meant to be. Maybe that's what faith had planned for us. And we're destined to be together. I've learnt to be forgiving and be a better girlfriend for the future for him or maybe to others. Maybe the journey of us might stop tomorrow or later. Whoever im with I know it's the best for me cause God wants the best for me. Positively, I surrender my life to God; He is my source of existence and savior. His decisions are never wrong and to all things that occur in life, there’s a profit and a reason behind it cause I believe so.

OH MOTHERFUCKER I JUST TYPE AN EXTREME-LY LONG ENTRY!