The gut feeling was right and the dream was obviously telling me something but i had to blatantly ignore it because im obnoxiously dumb.No doubt this is what an aquarius is. I felt as though i was being used. Well i was.

I dont know why i still bother. I teared when i woke up at approximately 8:00am in the morning when i realsied there were no missed calls and there were no new messages in the handphone.Usually i will get txt messages as "Good moring syg, are you awake?" Today it was different. It was silent. Crushed emotions engulf me in that few seconds. I cried and cried more than i should. Hoping miracles happen. Well it did happen to me once so i doubt its happening again.

I wanted to click....send message to him to make him realise on whatever shit his supposed to be responsible that he promised to and those yadayada stuff, but i pull-ed myself back. Gladly i know deep inside there's no point talking to some sense-less and no-heart man. I wish i can ignore people on a whim like some can do. Its so depressing to have the one you love most, the one you believe in the most to betray you. The fact, its Again. Being hurt twice is a no joke scenerio. If only i could detach myself from all this misery im facing.It would be a wonder.

For now, i dont know what happiness is.I just talk to the bestfriend and i can see that guys perception is a total difference as compared to girls.