Firstly thanks to ira (my lil' god-sister) who called me after reading my blog and to hadi!
its been a zillion years since i last hear from you. hahaha. so happy from you. Hows NS? isit torturing. Maklumlah, da besar la.. HAHAHAH!

Hadi: i heard abt your current situation
Me: ya...i know..
Hadi: we also broke up cause my gal has 3rd prty.
Me: tt sucks rite?
Hadi: ya.. but hey fatin.. if you're desperate tell me..i got ard 500 guys without galfriends. BUT...all of them ar bald!!
Me: HAHAHHAHAAH!

Hadi has never changed from primary school. You're still the bubbly hadi despite serving the NS already. Double WOW's for you. :))btw, hadi is my friend, you might wana check him out in www._hadi.livejournal.com

sighs..i suck.i dont get it. Fahrin told me that this is "adat" relationship.

If this is "adat" relationship. Then having relationship isnt something blissful. Cause there's no point being sincere and loyal cause the other party is not gonna be sincere. Im confused. really confused. Is there such things where a relationship is base and filled with trust and loyalty and respect. Is there such a relationship? Or perhaps its just another fairytale. its almost 2 weeks and im struggling to be happy and forget the past. I dont know why, sometimes it lingers in my mind. I feel goddamn LONELY! Fuck.

my sister will go : "this is the withdrawal symptom la kak.. u'll be okay."

and i really hope so.

till now i really dont understand why i deserve this.

i just wana publicly and officially say this.

i hate you so much. Its so much so that i dont want to declare you being a part of me before. NEVER.
Youre a stranger that i met that add so much burden to my life.!
KANINACCB.

happy?